Will I Wake Up?

Question #1:  Will I wake up?
Answer:  Yes.
My Reply: Great!

Question #2:  If so, will I still be me?
Answer:  Yes.
Reply:  Darn.

I did wake up after a successful surgery.  The wearing-out body has been repaired, and I am on the mend, just about ready to take on the world.  But before I do, I have to figure out which "world" it will be. Will it be my "old world", the things I did prior to surgery, or will it be the "new world", the things yet to be discovered and experienced?

I had hoped that when I awakened after surgery, that I would be a blessedly different woman:  forty pounds lighter, twenty years younger, and ten times smarter would have been lovely.  I thought it possible that my vocal range might even increase an octave or two and that the novel brewing inside of me just might emerge, finally.  I dreamed that I just might wake up as a new, exciting woman... maybe even one that is mysterious and enticing, so much so that reporters clamor to ask me questions about who I am and photographers anxiously await my appearance, hoping to frame a snippet of me that no one else has ever seen.

That was the desired outcome.  It didn't happen.  There were no photographers, no reporters, no paparazzi.  I am not younger:  I actually am older.  I have not lost forty pounds:  maybe four.  I am not mysterious:  I am, pretty much, an open book, and certainly the idea of writing a novel must have been propelled by pain medications, or by the pain itself.  I don't know where that idea came from.

But, I did wake up, and I did wake up "blessed"...that, I know.  The desired changes didn't happen.  I am still "me", and "me" is what I have to work with.  So, I'm just going to have to get over my disappointment, trust God, deal with the reality, and change my attitude.  And, who knows... someday, I may give them something to write about, after all.

So, let's start over...

Question #1:  Will I wake up?
Answer:  Yes.
My Reply: Great!

Question #2:  If so, will I still be me? 
Answer:  Yes. 
Reply:  How about that... let's celebrate!

Look out world, old & new... here I come!

Sincerely,
Cindy Lou



@Copyright 2011, Cindy Lou Hodges All Rights Reserved.

September

September

Temperatures drop.
Tempers cool.
Dust rides the breeze.
Summer's scorn still scorches
Earth, lakes...memories.

Grasslands beg for mercy.
Sun-dried soil's too dry to weep.
But, I believe in Texas
September does not sleep.

Press on, my state of Texas.
Oh, bend your stubborn knees.
Seek him who sends September...
Seek him who never sleeps.

Oh, long, long sought September...
Send rain, stop drought,
Break heat.
Oh, God, who sends September...
Restore, remember... me.
             --Cindy Lou Hodges

                          
One of the worst droughts in history is plaguing  my home state of Texas.  Record heat waves of temperatures 100 degrees or higher wreck havoc upon health, agriculture and ranching industries.  For nature, there is no escape from the sweltering heat, other than rain... blessed rain.  Let us return to our roots of faith, as we fall down in prayer and humbly ask God to send us rain... sweet, blessed rain.  

Praise God from whom all blessings flow!  Blessed be the name of the Lord...!

    
                 
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                                            SCRIPTURE REFRENCES

"Confess your faults one to another, and pray one for another, that ye may be healed.  The effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much.  Elias was a man subject to like passions as we are, and he prayed earnestly that it might not rain:  and it rained not on the earth by the space of three years and six months.  And he prayed again, and the heaven gave rain, and the earth brought forth her fruit."
--Holy Bible, James 5:16-18

"For the eyes of the Lord are over the righteous, and his ears are open unto their prayers:  but the face of the Lord is against them that do evil."
--Holy Bible, I Peter 3:12

"And I say unto you, Ask and it shall be given you;  seek and ye shall find;  knock, and it shall be opened unto you."  --Holy Bible, Luke 11:9

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@Copyright 2011, Cindy Lou Hodges All Rights Reserved.