My internal drive seems to be in "park" and rather "stuck" in the same place that it's been for awhile. I feel like an old car that can't make it up the hill and my owner crammed scotch blocks behind my wheels to keep me from rolling backwards, careening down into some deep, dark crevice. I can't get up enough steam to go forward, but I have dug in my heels so that I won't go backwards. I am determined to not go there.
So, it's either "here, to stay" or "move forward" or "move sideways". Sounds like some kind of dance, doesn't it? Yes, come to think of it, that is exactly what it is. It's life's dance, and I can sit it out, or I can join the party.
But, where I sit today is a very cozy place. I'm warm. I'm safe. I have much to be thankful for, much to do, yet this twinge of unhappiness and dissatisfaction weigh me down like lead in my dancing shoes. Like I said, when it's just me, I'm not sure that's a good thing.
Guess we all have days like this, especially when for several days the sun has hidden behind the clouds. Guess we can't always be who we want to be. Guess that's normal. The fact is: I need a friend today, and maybe, just maybe... that friend will ask me to dance, and together we'll make it up that hill.
Waiting for the sun to shine; believing it will,
Just a little blue for right now...
Cindy Lou
"Draw nigh to God, and He will draw nigh to you. Humble yourselves in the sight of the Lord, and He shall lift you up." ...Holy Bible, James 4: 8, 10
"Let us therefore come boldly unto the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy, and find grace to help in time of need." ...Holy Bible, Hebrews 4:16
p.s. I'm gonna' need these...
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